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Slowly attempting....

A tear trails down my face
one tear
just one
followed by another
until I breathe
willing it to stop.

This is not the first
but one of many
tears I’ve shed
for you
or for anyone.

And it won’t be the last.

late night

It's not for you to decide
how long i should go
maybe where i should go
is better

how often to i sit here and linger
how often do i hear your voice and cry
when should i go
but when should i stay

my heart is lost with endless possibilties
but which is right,
which is wrong?

The addictiveness of FF Tactics A2

O-M-G! I am horribly addicted to FF Tactics A2 on the DS. It has such awesome quests and weapon/armor making and its very reminiscent of FF Tactics Advanced. The only difference is that the storyline is a bit lacking. The main character seems to be a cocky kid who needs to get pushed into reality or at least be a little more down to earth. There just seemed to be more heart into the previous storyline. Obviously like all Final Fantasy games, they are not connected, just the world they are stuck in, Ivalice. Granted it is a strat game, but it's the only one that I actually give the time of day to play. Like my other friend, I don't like it when the computer can outsmart me. I want to be the smart one.

I'd give it a 8-9/10.

Play it!! Go now!!

Hahaha! Love u all! *muuuuuah*

it's be a while....

Yeah, I haven't written in year for a long while. Haha. Hmmm...I guess updates are in order.

I'm still living at home in Hawai'i, working at various temp jobs. At some near point, I plan on moving to the mainland, most likely Seattle. Though, my friend Natalie is trying to convince me to move in with her in Roseville, California. I'm thinkin about it, but Seattle is still my first choice.

I'm actually going to California near the end of the month for a wedding. I'm going to be Natalie's bridemaid. Yay ^_^

I write in my journals, not so much poetry as I should, but at least it's something. I still write poetry, but few and far between. One of my friends is taking a Creative Writing class at his college and showed me some of his poetry. It's emotionally intense, near violent, but that's the emotions he's trying to get across. I know that I don't write poetry like that. Mine are more liquid like the ocean. i've noticed that a lot of my poetry has to deal with the ocean, which makes a lot of sense since I'm surrounded by it. Haha!

Stuck in the middle

I can never win with love, can I? I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. This fucking bites as all hell. Why can't I ever be happy with love? And why do they always fucking leave!!!!!!??

GAHHHHHHHHHHH!

Current Games

On a lighter note, I am playing a huge number of games, usually not at the same time but I do get bored.

Online:
Flyff - kittenilima or AzuraNeko
Maple Story - ilimakitten or MystraHel

PlayStation 2:
Kingdom Hearts
Final Fantasy X
Rogue Galaxy
Phantasy Star Universe

Own but not playing yet:
Final Fantasy X-2
Final Fantasy XII
Kingdom Hearts 2

What can I say? I'm not working at the moment and I need something to do other than annoy the hell out of my friends. *big smile*

My Mood

I don't wnat to hold you back now love
I can't change who I am not this time,
I wont lie to keep you near me and in this short life,
there's no time to waste on giving up.
My love wasn't enough....

Lacrymosa - Evanescence


and my love is never enough....

kingdom hearts

i got kingdom hearts for christmas and i started playing. however, i am having difficulty getting past the barrel test in the olympus coliseum. the whole jumping and hitting thing is kinda hard and i'm still trying to get used to it. but yeah....i suck. or i just need a lot of luck in passing the second barrel test. i was soooo close once. now im just frustrated. *sigh*

i give props to everyone else who passed the game. ^_^

Merry Christmas

Wishing all my friends a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

I miss and love you all *glomps*

Love, Rachel

This is so true...

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.